I give up
I give up trying to make you love me, pretending you will ever feel the same like I do.
I need to stop even if it’s killing me. Maybe in a few years everything changes and I can be the friend you want me to be. But right now I can’t do this. I still have too much feelings for you and that will not change, ever. But hopefully I will be able to put all that aside and can be just that friend. I know I will not find anyone like you and you will ever have the best part of me. But for now I need to leave all this behind, concentrate, live for myself.
It’s better for you. I’m not standing in your way anymore.
From hospitals to honesty and everything you need of me, I’ll be there
If this was your last chance to say what you needed to and give them every thought in a verse.
Could you stomach the hurt?
Could you stomach the healing word?
From hospitals to honesty and everything that you need of me, I’ll be there
My inspiration, My guidance, My home
We think of you with love and speak of you with pride,
Does your heart pull on your throat like mine?
I will try to live without you by my side,
I will look up to the stars, so you will forever see, the best part of you still lives in me,
The north stands for nothing, the true and the trusting,
The east’s everlasting, the cracked and the rusting,
The south is the salt that will seal your sores,
The west is the weakness, the strength to defeat us.
The time took for granted, the before and the after,
For question and your answers, our courage, our cancer.
I’m paranoid to the point where I want to punch myself in the face…like even if people tell me they enjoy my company, invite me places, and happily start conversations with me, I will still be 700% convinced that I am a waste of their time and that they secretly hate me and are talking to me only because they feel they have to